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satoru doodle spread !! 🍡
#WAHHH i havent posted m’ art in a while !! :0#but i finally found a consistency artstyle so !! dats supa exciting !! >//<#i missed drawin’ satoru SHOOO much SOB !! m’ wittle muse !! <3#˚⊹ ᡣ𐭩 — art .ᐟ#satoru#satoru gojo#gojo#gojo fanart#satoru fanart#jjk#jjk fanart#satosugu#satosugu fanart#stsg#stsg fanart#jjk gojo#jjk suguru#jjk geto#jjk satoru#anime#anime art#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen fanart#satoru gojo fanart#jujutsu gojo
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This line is extremely funny (motherly??? hello??) but also it just reminds me of why the Minori & Airi dynamic makes me want to explode (positive). Long essay post under the cut.
Even though she's only a year older, Airi sees so much of her past self in Minori -- she knows what it's like to be an outsider in their industry, to be someone who's faced rejection for simply not possessing the innate “idol aura” that people like Haruka and Shizuku have. She’s not like them; and neither is Minori. Having a dream is great, but you can't become an idol purely out of desire. This is expressed very directly in the digest animation (which condenses the MMJ main story): "Just because you want something to happen doesn't mean it will."
Screenshots from MORE MORE JUMP - Journey to Bloom: [HOPE].
Airi's resigned herself to the fact that she's stuck in her role as a variety show entertainer, even though being an idol was her real dream. And, after seeing her own fate, she bluntly tells Minori that the other's passion isn't enough for her to successfully break into the industry. Despite this, Minori isn’t discouraged from her path; after all, she'd already been rejected 50 times. In her own words: she has faith -- something Airi has almost lost.
But Airi hasn't lost it completely. After some reminders from Shizuku, she reluctantly agrees to watch Minori's practices and give her some advice. It's a small ask, but one means a lot to Minori -- which Airi knows, and she's willing to give Minori a chance.
Minori has the chance to return the favor when Airi goes to confront Cheerful*Days. Even when Haruka warns her about the ugliness she's about to see, she isn't swayed. In her own words: she "care[s] too much for Momoi". Not just as a fan, but a friend* now, too.
Screenshots from the MORE MORE JUMP! main story chapter 11. *friend is a bit of a loose term here but Minori does know Airi personally by this point. Not as well as Shizuku, but better than she used to.
The affirmation of being an idol that Minori gives is huge for Airi. After being constantly denied her identity as an idol from both her managers and peers, hearing this from the girl who she had accidentally dismissed is perhaps the most powerful thing she could have heard in that moment. It's clear that Minori hasn't been disillusioned in the slightest even after seeing all the resentment and anger, and despite everything, she still believes in Airi, and her ability to spread hope as an idol.
After all that happens in the main story, Minori's presence becomes a non-negotiable part of MMJ. She is, after all, the final bit of glue that brought them together as a group. In Time to Re:Start! (Airi 1), Haruka, Airi, and Shizuku all make it extremely clear that they refuse to let their group split up. We see how Airi takes this a step further:
Screenshots from Chapter 4 of Time to Re:START!
Notably, she's willing to go back to variety programs and talent work if it means that MORE MORE JUMP! can stay together (even though doing so means that she probably would be extremely busy and have less time to do "real" idol work!)
Since Airi's offer is rejected here, we don't see the consequences of this negotiation come to fruition, but it's certainly not an offer she makes lightly. Note that Airi 2 hasn't happened yet; she still hasn't fully made peace with how her role as Happy Everyday took time away from her as "Airi Momoi the idol". Despite how painful it would be her to reprise as that role after resolving to become an "regular" idol again, Airi still makes this request as a last resort, because she would put herself through something she doesn't want rather than sacrifice Minori's dream to be an idol. This isn't something that the rest of MMJ would agree to, of course, but this cements a trend in Airi's behavior -- namely, her desire to protect Minori from the thorns of the idol industry that she's had to go through. Her Colorful Fes card gives some insight into this, where she encounters the younger version of herself (Little Airi).
Screenshots from "To You Who Wants To Be An Idol" Side Story 2.
The way Airi treats her literal younger self mirrors the way she treats Minori at the start of the MMJ main story. Even though she knows better than anyone how much being called a "tomboy" hurt her younger self, Airi still calls her that on accident. This is extremely similar to how she dismisses Minori upon their first meeting -- she of all people should know how hurtful it is, but she does it nonetheless. This time, however, she doesn't need Shizuku to remind her of her mistake, and quickly rectifies it -- a testament to how she's changed since the events of the main story.
Still Airi's ColorFes card story 2. Sorry for the spam of screenshots from this one I love this card way too much
Airi imparts the lesson she learned from Minori to Little Airi: "tomorrow will always be a better day." She shares the hope that Minori (and the rest of MMJ) shares, something she directly says she's grateful for. Meeting Minori has changed her for the better, and also allowed for her finally continue on her path towards being a "real" idol -- one that never gives up.
By the time Airi 3 happens, MMJ have taken off as online streamers. People have started to accept Minori as an idol -- but she's still a newbie when compared to the rest of the group, and lacks the same training that her fellow idols have. Nobody is more keenly aware of this than Minori herself. While she's initially practicing on her own, Airi is quick to understand what Minori's issue is, as its one that she's dealt with herself. Yet again, it comes back to seeing her past behaviors in Minori's - she's gone through the experience of trying to emulate the "idol aura," so she knows doing so is a waste. She wants to save Minori the time and effort that it took for her to learn these lessons, so that Minori is able to hasten her path towards finding the "best way to shine".
Screenshots from Chapter 6 of "Chasing The Sparkle Beyond the Blue Sky"
The other really interesting thing is how Airi tells Minori her to not put herself down -- and yet Airi does the same to herself! She needs Shizuku to reaffirm her status as a true idol and tell her the same things that Airi herself tells Minori. She's been able to relearn how to inspire others, but still needs help when it comes to having that faith in herself.
This event is a testament to how much the two of them have matured since the main story, while also showing where they still have more room to grow. The two of them still have some doubts about whether they "deserve" to be idols, but it's something that they're both working through, together with each other as well as the rest of MMJ.
In regards to Airi trying to shield Minori from going through the troubles she did, it comes into the spotlight yet again during Airi 4:
Screenshots from Chapter 4 and Chapter 5 of "Friendship Rebuilt"
This time, we see this behavior explicitly stated: "I don't want her to experience what I did back then". Minori is her own person, and Airi respects her ability to make her own decisions, but she can't help but see her past self in the other, even after how far they've come. She's worried; Minori may be strong, but Airi wants to make sure that she can avoid having to go through the same pain she did.
This all comes full circle then, when Airi excitedly talks about her upcoming school trip to Kyoto.
Screenshots from the "I'm Excited Too" (Pandemonium/Spirited Affair 2*) side story 1.
After constantly being the one looked after, Minori finally gets another chance to be happy for Airi. For once, Airi doesn't have to sacrifice her own happiness for work, and for that, she's glad. It's the least she can do for the girl who's been protecting her all this time, and its a step towards Minori truly becoming an equal to the idols she's looked up to her whole life.
MMJ as a whole unit is about spreading hope and joy -- more specifically, about sharing hope and joy. The reason both Minori and Airi decide to become idols in the first place is because they were cheered up by idols in their childhood, and wanted to do the same for others. Minori is able to finally become an idol herself after she helps Airi (as well as Shizuku and Haruka) regain their own hope and passion; Airi does her best to guide Minori down a path that is as least painful as possible in return. MMJ's stories focus so much on the idea of paying it forward it truly drives me crazy to see how Minori and Airi's dynamic really embodies that ideal, where Minori will never stop uplifting her friends while Airi always looks out for them.
#the minoai post! as promised#project sekai#airi momoi#minori hanasato#minoairi#minoai#<- platonic or romantic. you choose#their dynamic is so sweet either way <3#more more jump#mmj#momoi airi#hanasato minori#also i'm sure there's so much i'm missing but i had to cut myself off after rereading like 6 different events + mmj main story in a day#and i had to stop myself from going on tangents because the rest of mmj also makes me crazy but this post is focused on airi + minori#this ended up focusing slightly more on airi (sorry minori i swear you're my fav prsk chara) but i hope it's not too summary heavy#not that this meant to be a formal essay or anything (hence the tone and ineloquent quote integration) but it did spiral in that direction#don't give me excessive amounts of downtime at work or else this happens#autumnal rambles#btw sorry for using ensekai titles. all my screenshots are from there so i stuck with them for consistency
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thank you for the tag, @sasheneskywalker!!!
rules: answer and tag nine people you want to get to know better and catch up with.
favorite color: it changes regularly, but currently, a dusty/greyish purple
last song: Maps by The Front Bottoms
currently reading:
Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver is my current fiction read and i *hate* it with my entire being. don't read it.
Postcolonial Astrology: Reading the Planets through Capital, Labor, & Power by Alice Sparkly Kat is my current non-fiction read and so far, it's very good
i'm reading a lot of comics at the moment, but my main read is Manhunter (2004) which so far, is very good, i highly recommend. i'm also planning to read Midnighter (2007) and Black Widow (2014).
currently watching:
The Acolyte has been my most recent fixation so that's just on loop rewatching over and over in the background. a lot
i've been watching Pennyworth which is far better than i expected it to be, i'm really enjoying it
i also started Invincible, which i've been enjoying
idk if it counts but i've rewatched Madame Web a concerning number of times in the past few days.
currently craving: i'd kill for an Italian Cream Soda from tea2go rn
coffee or tea: tea. i used to be a big coffee person in my teens but my chronic illness doesn't like caffeine and it *really* doesn't like coffee so i just drink tea now, but i do love tea
hobby to try: the unrealistic hobby i'd like to get into a fanfiction binding, but that takes materials and resources i do *not* currently have. i think a more realistic answer is i've been meaning to get into marvel comics more.
current au: tbh the main AU i'm working on is a Lance Brunner-centric Post-Crisis fic where i'm completely rewriting his origins to make his death as Robin more significant but still something no one talks about, leading to the ressurection of Jason also reviving Lance and Jason going on his little spree, having no idea he's not the only dead Robin. i've figured out all of the backstory and how i want to characterize Lance, but the actual plot of the fic i'm still working out. i'm leaning toward Lance/Dick as a ship, but i haven't decided. i have so many notes and ideas though and i think it's funny to take a random one-off character from a random 60s comic and actually turn him into something substantial and how he'd shape the Batfamily. trust me i'm so close to infodumping about it here everyday.
i'm also working on a *really* messed up unhealthy Damian/Tim fic, where Damian purposefully breaks the timeline so Tim was never Robin and Damian was the third Robin instead. but when Bruce "dies" Damian realizes he has no idea where to start with finding Bruce so he has to go to a civilian!Tim for help, who has no idea the timeline was changed or that he was ever Robin in a different world. it's gonna be fun and fucked up and full of Damian's jealousy complex over Tim.
i don't know if i can come up with nine whole people to tag for this since i'm still new here but i can try: @searchforahero @divine-dominion @kevin-day-is-bi @kerakeriza @deepwithintheabyss
@maryshellyswife @alicemaem @justmyshittyspace @sandmanwhore and yeah that's all i got.just tagging some mutuals/ppl i see on my posts a lot!!!
#necrotic ramblings#tag game#!!!! ty sm for tagging me in this aaaaa i love tag games#also sashene the omegaverse worldbuilding thing you're working on sounds so cool.#i *love* well built omegaverse worlds so much that consider real world dynamics and mechanics. cannot wait#sorry tagging random ppl is awkward i rlly don't have many mutuals yet#but i see all the lil ppl who mass like/reblog my stuff at once and i love all of you.#i do recognize who consistently interacts with my stuff. i see it all.#idk how to be cool mutual friends with ppl tho. socialization isn't my forte#which is weird bc it *used* to be. idk what happpened.#i had to text my groupchat for their tumblr handles so i could make it to nine whole ppl#ty alice ronnie and skye for being my sacrifices <3 y'all have to suffer with knowing my batcest blog now.#the lance brunner idea is plaguing me though i think it's really funny#i've had it in my head since i read the comic he's in. bc there's only one. after seeing posts about him#he's fucking ridiculous but. i see potential i won't lie#this was delightful tho i miss doing tag games. 10/10.
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/55890415/chapters/141920194
Huh. I wrote almost 10,000 words in less than a week. When the brainrot hits, it really fucking hits.
WARNING, POST GAME SPOILERS, CONTINUE AT OWN RISK! (And if you do click the link, y’know, mind the tags)
Anyways, hello In Stars and Time fandom! Look what I just finished up earlier today~ For those who don’t obsessively check ao3, it’s a little series I’ve made about Siffrin post-canon having some time loop trauma manifesting as getting stuck in just repeating his lines (well, most lines are his, hehe) and going semiverbal. This here is a prequel to the smaller fic “Line, Please” which is the same basic premise, but later chronologically (so the fam isn’t quite as freaked out).
Do mind the warnings, this is a trauma response after all, but what can I say? For as much as I like to break characters open and see them bleed, I also adore some hurt/comfort and recovery. I think this game and fandom ought to understand, Change is destruction, but can be good too.
… and I wasn’t sure whether to go into it on ao3 or if it’d be weirdly personal and TMI, but fuck it. This was partly inspired by me going nonverbal about a week prior to “Line, Please.” It doesn’t happen to me often (I could count the times on one hand), but the mortal terror and sheer, prolonged dread of hearing people talk about imminent tornadoes all day, hurriedly packing as much as you can into a bag and going to the closest thing you have to shelter only to realize it is closed, it will not accept you, you cannot get in, desperately looking for anywhere else and slowly realizing you have no good options… Well, good news (for me at least), it missed us. I didn’t lose my life, car, apartment, or anything I owned. But turns out an entire day of slowly building terror and helplessness will fuck up your mental state. Im lucky that was the worst though.
… so yeah.
Anyways! Back to fic, there’s a nonzero chance I’ll somehow manage another insane bout of productivity next week, but there’s also a nonzero chance I will once more fall off the face of the earth for months (for more details, see the unnecessarily long author’s note on chapter 3, but good news! Job’s been confirmed, YA GIRL WILL CONTINUE TO HAVE INCOME!!! NO STARVING! YAY!)
Hope y’all have enjoyed, and sorry not sorry for the rant. You chose to click Read More, I wash my hands of responsibility /hj (but seriously, thanks for reading and have a good day).
And zero pressure, especially since I really don’t put too much on there, but link to Kofi.
#in stars and time#ao3#isat fanfic#ISAT#isat spoilers#vent post#cw: storms#cw: mortal fear#cw: mental health#these are warnings for the post not the fanfic btw#the fanfic is well tagged but tell me if I miss something#also shoutout to ThatDogAnon who consistently is one of the first to comment and leaves nice fucking comments and thank you so much!!!#mine#fanfic#terminal brainrot#I love it
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rivers if he was absorbed by poisonous gas but didn’t care too much
#weezer#rivers cuomo#poison gas#poison#maybe i’ll get more fans#THE WEEZER ARMY MUST GROW#THE WEEZER LVOERS !#please send me asks guys am so bored!!!#plus also dms are always open for any of u! i love u all n would love to talk to any of u#i took this pic and Wonderfront#i miss it. i wanna see them again :( but im broke!#i have to spend my money on my anniversary gift for my boyfriend which i’m NOT complaining about bc i love him obviously but am seriously SO#broke. i will draw whatever you guys want actually#for either 1) a follow (or if you are already following ; then free) 2) a little kiss#not on the lips though#but ya! please send. asks i always love interacting with you all! you guys r so sweet <3#there’s this tiktok user#maladroitlover579 and i love their videos so much they’re genuinely so silly n funny#i love commenting on their videos you guys should check them out they r huge weezer fan too!!! if you couldn’t tell by the name#omg today someone complimented my hair and i got so happy#MY OUTFITS HAVE BEEN SO FIRE LATELY🤤🤤 today i wore a short denim skirt with an off the shoulder black long sleeve with white leg warmers!#then yesterday i wore a black tube top with a long black skirt which hugged me#before i wore my brown sweater with my black skirt (which has POCKETS.) so it was super cute.#then monday i wore black yoga flares; white tank top with cute buttons; and a red shrug!#i got compliments on my style. 😎 guess i’m just the cutest girl on the block#or should i say… ON GHE BLOG??!#cuz it’s weezer blog… and i’m the only girl posted on here consistently….#always between my words i wanna add ‘da’ in the middle of them because that’s a running joke w my boyfriend#like da obviously! 🙄 da seriously? 😒 da Lol 😂#idk he’s silly and i’m silly
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i fucking jhate zealot end of mission screen poses. what the fuck are you doing
god forbid you get two or more on a team because it looks like a professional wrestling lineup.
#IM JUST KIDDING I LOVE THE END OF MISSION POSES. i just keep a collection.#I consistently forget to give kenna end poses so they're always just person standing emoji while everyone else wilds out around them#darktide#text post#kal#ive been playing SO much zealot lately for penances... i missed him
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It’s weird when u lose art motivation completely and when u try to come back to it, you kind of forget how u ever did it in the first place
#I know it’ll come back but like wtf#how do people pump out so much art consistently#HOW DID I EVER DO THAT#it feels like pulling teeth !!#maybe I’ll post my little sketchbook doodles#I miss sharing what I make :(
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fall outfit lookbook for @sweetncozy
outfit 1: sweater, skirt, tights, socks, mary janes, hair outfit 2: shirt, skirt, socks, boots, hair outfit 3: sweater (i couldn't find a working link, reuploaded), skirt, tights, socks, sneakers, hair outfit 4: cardigan, shorts, socks, sneakers, hair outfit 5: sweater (could not find this ANYWHERE, reuploaded, originally from @/goldenwaves <3), jeans, boots, hair
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#i didn't want to list all of this in the comments#so heres a post#also for future ref pls send asks to my askbox it makes answering them so much easier and consistent#lmk if theres anything i missed that u want to know#ts4 lookbook#s4 lookbook#wcif
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sorry to still be thinking about it but its amazing the amount of people who are willing to overlook one of the core elements of konoha's history (and by extension of naruto as a whole) which is the marginalisation and straight up segregation of the uchiha clan just because the character who kickstarted all of it has a cool design and is really strong. tobirama hated the uchiha to the point where his own brother while on his DEATHBED had to make him promise not to hurt them so he made up the police force and assigned it to the uchiha so they could be effectively unable to do literally any other job while also making sure everyone else in konoha hated them because they felt constantly under watch by the red eyed freaks. tobirama's excuse was that he didnt actually hate the uchiha, just madara, who was coincidentally their most powerful member, so the uchiha exiled him bc they believed tobirama. and what did that accomplish? that when madara died nobody claimed his body and tobirama took it to STUDY it and then buried him in an unmarked grave (which ironically worked in madara's favor later). tobirama "i dont hate the uchiha one of my students was an uchiha" senju just so happened to also "raise" one of the biggest uchiha haters in konoha history, danzo, who not only furthered their marginalisation and demonization but also orchestrated their whole entire MASSACRE just so he could steal their eyes.
but sure the two things are completely unrelated and tobirama and danzo are very different and nothing matters
#this is not even an anti-tobirama post im not anti anything im 23 etc etc its just really about naruto fans#completely missing the couple of good points kishimoto tried to make#just bc a character looks like like nesflash!! its naruto every character looks cool its like one of the few consistently good things about#the manga#plus like i said before the history of the senju-uchiha clans makes naruto so much more interesting BECAUSE of all the complexities#and danzo as well like hate him as much as you want but the story would be so incredibly boring without him#what im trying to say is i dont get why people erase these things completely when they are what enriches the story so much#how boring would it be if the only reason madara was the villain was that he was a crazy dude and tobirama was Actually a Really Good Guy#like congrats!! youve fallen for danzo/tobirama anti-uchiha propaganda!#naruto
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Ria drawings I've been meaning to do for a long long while now jdhgfjkdfgjhksdf
#daisy's ocs#oc ria#oc diamond#oc riam#i love drawing her but i actually struggle so much with keeping her head shape and eyes consistent hdfkhdfjsdf#that diamond drawing dates exactly when i meant to draw this (summer)#also i love drawing flowy hair can you tell#can you tell#yeah#hi i miss being on tumblr#i haven't been drawing stuff i'm good with posting but i hope to be back more frequently before i go back to school#also also that's just how siblings are man. yeah
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I really do need to reach out to my friends more..
#Briefly texted an IRL friend earlier and also messaged another IRL friend recently#I miss both of them a lot. Hopefully I can see them again in person at some point or at the very least play games with them :]#Even outside of those two I also gotta be better at messaging online friends as well..#I mean I don't wanna burn myself out either but yknow. I wanna catch up GHKDGHJD#artsy ramblings#Agh I just get so shy when I gotta message people first.. even if it's people I've known for a long time#Have literally known my IRL friends for a decade at this point(!!!!!) and yet I'm like.......do i message first or will i....botherthem ._.#Aghhh GKUGHJSGHJS I LOVE MY FRIENDS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH /p#Also hoping to start posting and replying and faving stuff on DeviantArt consistently again as well#I kept saying I would and I never did and I NEED to break that cycle sbhjsbhjsBJKSGUISBHIHJKSHUKHUKSBJKSSS
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it varies in thickness, but kuukou tends to be drawn with a plush bottom lip and i think it’s cute lol
#vee queued to fill the void#a trait i like to think is consistent enough bc of his actors lol both hayama-san and hirono-san have eye catching mouths lol#nakanishi-san not as much but he should NOT be pitted against those two lmao and he’s perfect anyway lol#this post is brought to you by the remnants of a kuukou meltdown btw don’t worry about lmao#i’ve been too tired to think and i miss crying over how cute he is lmao#so i was watching the hypdream pv in slow motion when bat hit and was pleasantly surprised that kuukou’s model also has a plush bottom lip#but i think his vr battles model did as well and they seem to be refined versions of those lol#hitoya btw also is drawn with a plush bottom lip with a fair amount of consistency and it also shows on that model like damn lol
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standing in the open doorway of my blog. the fn.af hyperfixation is creeping back in ( not that it ever fully left ).
#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#listen i've been taking a much-needed break from the rp side of tumblr#(usually my breaks consist of lurking and stressing out abt getting back. so like. not breaks.)#so yeah i haven't even been lurking BUT i miss y'all#i do wanna get back here but it's gotta be on my brain's terms#like. i NEED to focus on rping because i genuinely love it and not because Somebody Might Hate Me For Being Slow / Inactive#but yeah expect me lurking more again + maybe posting ooc / hc stuff#as for actual writing: we'll see!! hopefully soon because i miss it but i'm not gonna make promises#esp because i've been busy lately too#in the meantime i'm active on my personal and si.ms blog if anybody wants to urls#+ feel free to message me on dis.cord
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hello everyone!!
i am ,,, so sorry 4 being so inactive on here. honestly I don’t even have a good excuse I just went dead for months 😭 to make up for it here’s all the random stuff I’ve doodled :3
everything is under the cut <3
it’s. mostly Johnny sorry guys I’m a one-trick pony.
again so sorry for being so inactive. I have been drawing though!! I’ll be posting more stuff later today :3
#mk1#johnny cage#kenshi takahashi#mklegends#there’s actually a few more that I can’t add but u ain’t missing much. don’t worry#I’m so bad at posting art on all my socials consistently#please don’t murder me#uhm anyways. hope everybody is doing well
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aside from his malpractice blunders being the most public, do you think the fact that foreman is quick to call out other’s unethical behaviors/complain about the team doing malpractice when he was literally assistant manager of the malpractice department contributes to his reputation of being a bit fake or disingenuous?
That's actually an interesting point! Foreman definitely… one of my favorite jokes at his expense is in Two Stories, when we see him through House's point of view:
Masters : We need to get a chest C.T. Foreman : Excuse me, I'm the senior team member, which means we don't need anything unless I say we need it. […] Foreman : We need a chest C.T.
Which is a joke, obviously. But, you know. Foreman is ambitious, but he always wants the credit. He is dismissive and petty and always thinks he's right (just like House!). We see repeatedly (Histories, Deception, House Training) that when he doesn't like a patient he dismisses all their symptoms and tries to push them out the door. He's not at all good at pretending he cares when he doesn't. (And hilariously complains that Chase is too good at pretending to care when he doesn't.) But when it's something he believes in or cares about, he goes completely the opposite direction: he ruins the Huntington's trial for, as Thirteen points out, someone he's dated for two weeks. He steals bone marrow to save a life.
He's… kind of a pure example of a hypocrite. He complains about Cameron being biased and unethical, and then breaks laws for the people he cares about. He complains about Chase not liking patients, and even Cameron describes his bedside manner as bad. He is the first team member in the series to tattle to Cuddy, but he thinks Chase is a huge rat. He wants to be in charge, and consistently kind of struggles with being a good boss, earning respect, getting people to listen to him. He clings to the idea of being Senior Fellow, uses it as an excuse to tell people what to do, is pretty consistently open with how little he respects Cameron and Chase… and then gets mad at them in S2 when they have no interest in listening to him when he's in charge.
(Tangent: this is why Taubman is so good. Because Taub genuinely doesn't give a shit. He's not threatened by Foreman. Foreman can't boss him around unless Taub lets him.)
Another of my favorite little exchanges is in Deception, the first episode Foreman is in charge of the team post-The Mistake:
FOREMAN: And I expect you [House] here for grand rounds at nine. By the way, I like sugar in my coffee. [He's grinning. Joking but enjoying himself.] CUDDY: [To Foreman, sharply] If there’s a screw-up, it’s your screw-up. You won’t have Dr. House to fall back on. [Foreman's face falls.]
He wants the power. He wants the responsibility. He loves the idea of House having to do what he says. And the idea of actually having to deal with consequences of messing up scares him. He gets so into the idea of fucking with House that he loses sight of the actual job. And through the S2 Foreman arc, he… is cautious. He stops coming up with ideas, he struggles mightily with getting Cameron and Chase to do anything he wants, he doesn't really do much. He wants so badly to be in charge, to be important, and then he drops the ball when he has it.
I think this is all pretty obvious from the outside! It turns into a joke, that's how obvious it is. Foreman struts into a room (Kids has another great example) assuming he has all the power and authority in the world, and then goes blank when no one listens. He's constantly pushing to be in charge and struggles when he gets it. And it goes into a whole other thing.
Foreman has massive imposter syndrome. He has incredible issues with his worth and sense of belonging and struggles to connect with people and be vulnerable. He doesn't think he belongs, he thinks at any minute people will notice and catch on and throw him out. He's the poor Black kid from a bad neighborhood and no one lets him forget it. He doesn't let himself forget it. He's always trying so damn hard to prove himself, to be the best in the room, that he ends up coming off as wildly hypocritical: he puts down others to make himself look good, he pushes to be best but has no end goal, no win state, no moment that he does feel like he belongs. He doesn't want to be like House, correctly identifying that House is miserable. But he admires House. But in other ways, he wishes he could be like House. House doesn't give a shit what people think of him. Foreman spends every day looking over his shoulder.
#malpractice posting#eric foreman#related i think this is why i enjoy foreman and chase's frenemies thing so much#like god chase is everything foreman hates about himself and about others#he's the super privileged rich white kid who gets everything he wants. who is oozing with talent. who never has to try#and is so much better at pretending to care and like people than foreman is#(no wonder that specifically is what foreman complains about)#foreman complains that chase is fake. that he's petty. that he's screwed up and driven by revenge. that he's a rat. that he's pathetic.#that he's superficial and fake and a liar and an ass-kisser and doesn't care about anyone or anything. doesn't care about the job.#and it's not like he's completely wrong about chase but he also misses a lot. he just consistently dismisses and demeans chase#in finding judas foreman is still going on about chase's rich dad doing whatever chase wants. despite ALL EVIDENCE#in mirror mirror foreman assumes chase is running the betting pool because he's jealous of foreman. despite ALL EVIDENCE#but chase is also the perfect person for foreman TO hate because chase actually IS good at faking shit.#chase DOESN'T care about proving himself to anyone. he doesn't care what people think of him#and that's so foreign and terrifying to foreman#also chase is a petty little bitch who is very good at poking foreman right where it hurts when he wants to#(which is also terrifying. foreman's being Perceived)#anyway i love their distaste for one another SIGH
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happy approximately one year of art block lads
#i didn't talk abut it until december but i was struggling since last autumn. it's so sad i'm still having problems actually#sad in the like. Miserable way. i love art so much but it still does not love me rn. sniffle sniffle#postings#tbh a lot of it is my own fault i haven't been practicing the art and style studies as hard as i should be#(unfortunately that is because my entire life has become Work. Chores. Sit There For Five Hours. Play BOTW.)#but i really need to push myself harder with experimenting bc i miss consistently drawing#i need to get more used to csp too im still really awkward with the program#and keep drifting back to my shitty sai binary doodles (since sai doesnt clcik well w my tablet)#maybe should unplug my tablet and try going back to mouse art in full for a bit#see if it helps
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